When the Big Nothing creeps in, it takes away all my joy. At these times I need to not eat any cane sugar because it takes away my reasoning power. I begin to believe there is no point and that I am truly unlovable. I make decisions about why my friends are avoiding me and that really no one likes me.
It’s taken a while to recognise my symptoms, finding fault in everyone, sleeping too much, lethargy, over eating etc. but now I have some strategies to deal when the big nothing comes.
I walk, do random acts of kindness for strangers, with the added bonus they will never know whom has done what I have done, and lastly I try to do, go something I have never done before.